i was all alone tryin to find ma self...

i was sittin in the corner..thinkin..bout somethin that cud happen for the next day...but i ended up with a ´never gettin you´ thought..embarrased bout what happen for the past couple of weeks..i really dont know how..when...or even where it starts..all i know is i was just spendin my spare time readin nicholas book..then i suddenly realized that i was not paying attention to the lines of what im readin..i did go back from the chapter where i started to read..then..suddenly my phone beeps..´twas an sms from crissy whom i called momiii..anyway...her message made me realize how fool i am..haha..but anyway..it was just a life´s burden activities that can brought someone into a critical way of thinkin as what imma thinkin right now,,,hell it is..´twas all bout me..who i am..how i act..how do i love..how do i forgive..how do i forget..last phrase actually never happen..i can say that chat brought my life back..in a way that i did have a lot of considered friends in there..was with them almost everyday...sharin thoughts with them...BOLAHAN is on the top of our list..haha..so glad that i met this kind of people...coz sharin my me to a certain person brings a deeper meaning on my side...everybody knows that..i met justine whom i considered a very special person in my life..i can say that we had each other at hello..haha...no..im happy she accept me without a doubt..but nothing much deeper than that..it was just all on mine...we know each other well..we did start in a special way of treatin each other after a month...and it was by january 14, 2008..half year from now..huhu...our first month...i will consider it a fruitful month of my life..same with the next 3 months..though im kinda weary everyday coz i know.. i dont have any right bout havin the whole justine in my life..im happy that i have someone whom i can talk...share...and spend my bling bling sometimes..i do nourished every month we had..but i know its not enough...the next couple of month was...i dont know what to say..i just miss justine everyday..and thats it...then i realized that i really love justine and i do want to spend my lifetime with this person.....panaginip lng lht pede mangyari..haha...buhay nga nmn..

anyway..i will continue posting some blog..that could trigger your mind...halabsyoo...

_ayu_